21st of September – Trauma part 3

Luckily, Lund is the absolute best Hospital in the world to deal with these operations. It totally struck us again - the shock kept on building up...we were totally traumatised. Later we made our way up with James to the Child intensive care unit. I hoped it was all just a bad nightmare and we would soon wake up from it all. James’s bed was placed in room number 4 and they started connecting all sorts of things on him to keep him very closely monitored. James temperature was down in 34 Celsius. We were well looked after, received some information but I was in my own bubble. We both were in a grave state of shock. We went outside the unit for a bit to sms and call around to let people know what had happened and organise practical things. All we wanted was to let as many people know as possible so they could pray and cross their fingers for our James.
We went back inside and received information that we would stay at a patient hotel within the hospital area but we were welcome to sleep the first night in the room next to James. But we felt safe to leave him monitored and they had our numbers and we could call them whenever. We went over to James`s bed to kiss him and talk to him. He started to get a bit of more colour to him, but far, far from well. Doctors went in and out to check more on him. James had still this grunt breathing. But they didn´t give him extra oxygen or put him on a ventilator - though that would worsen his condition seriously. He had all the other equipment though. They checked his breathing frequency, oxygen level, how much co dioxide he had, pulse, blood pressure etc. We couldn´t get enough of kissing him and talking to him. James being still alive was a huge miracle. We were proud and considering all the shock we were very happy he was still alive. Only some hours earlier we took for granted he would be with us, we had a healthy baby. No worries. Now we found us to be grateful if we had one hour or one day more with him.
We decided to sleep at the hotel after all. We were totally bushed both physically, mentally....James was safe. We went asleep crying holding each other.