At Home

Everything went well :O)! James was allowed home on leave the 13th f November and he was disharged 16th of November :O)!! It is very quick, but if James hadn´t had the small tummysurgery he would have been home earlier. There was some smaller complications with a lot of pain for poor James, so of course the docotrs kept him for observations. The other reasin was their was higher risk of infections in his abdomen. James was however not happy in the hospital and he was not impressed with me :O(! It showed when Daddy came, James felt he could not trust me completely since I was the one allowing the painful medicine and examinations. He had a lot of stress within him, and nothing strange with it. When we came home on the Friday he was all happy, jumped up in the sofa and watched some tv. After about half an hour, James suddenly just started crying, totally devestated heartbreaking cry, coming out from the blue. James had been very angry the last couple of days in hospital, chasing me with the bobbycar sometimes hitting after my legs. Nothing he would do normally and nothing I would except normally, it was a release for him. Back home in the sofa he just let go of all his feelings and started crying, poor little man could not speak and tell us things
:O(. Nigel and I held him for a long time comforting him, I cried with James. Personally I think it must be the worst age to have surgery when it comes to age. So old you can remember things but do not coprehend what is happening and why and tell how you feel :O(!
It was rough first weeks. At first because James was early home and risk of infections, he had medicines at 6.00 7.00 14.00 18.00 20.00 22.00 02.00. Nigel was working abroad ALOT during rest of November into December. James did not sleep much he HAD HORRIBLE NIGHTMARES :O(! He just woke up screaming, with nightfright, when he was asleep it was a worried sleep. So I did not hardly sleep at all.Of course we have 4 to 7 (depending on which week) more children than James that need love and affecions.These weeks I felt like and horrible bonus/Mum of course I did cope properly. Except for this there was alot of times James needed to go to hospital for PF test and controls to check so he did not start collecting fluid. I am otherwise a cheerful go lucky person but when December came and closer to Christmas I felt like a dishrag, hahahahaha, not really funny but life is tough sometimes, even if your dream came true, your beautiful child survived :O)! WE ARE SOOOOOOOOO LUCKY AND FORTUNATE :O)! There is not a day I do not thank God for our blessings :O)!
When we came home a card had arrived from my friend Tina, she is also a heart mother :O)! It made me cry :O)! She had drwan a teddy vear with a red heart that hade been mended with stitches :O)! So beautiful, she had made it herself, it ment lots and lots :O)! James will have it on his wall as soon as his room is finished :O)!
James has more energy :O)! Of course I joked and asked the doctor if we could have a pill for him for his energy ;O) or a pill for me ;O). HAHHAHAHAHHAA, what is life without humour ;O)??
Sorry it is so long between the blogs, but there is always so much happening here, I will fill in :O)!
Lots of love, Malin